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Name: Jenel & Bobbie
Country: United States
Gender: Female
Interests: Jenel;s:: I love my wonderful boyfriend Adam , meeting new people , quotes , icons , hair dye , nail polish , make up , socks , the color black , hugs , giving advice , music -metal , rap , rock , hip hop , some country- , movies , skateboarding , takeing pictures , stuff lyke that.
my personal xanga is : http://www.xanga.com/death_whispered_lullaby
my layout xanga is : http://www.xanga.com/blindedxlayz
Expertise: Bobbiis:i love make up,i like the computer,i used to like skating idk if i do nemore or not i havent been in forever :),i love music it makes me smile :),i hate fake people,i love Megann lol,i luv hanging out with people but i havent done much of that since i moved.hmm im 16 i live in Bethany Ok
www.xanga.com/TheseTearsAreDeadly my xanga
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AIM:  Bobbiis Aim
AIM:  Sweet1Addiction2
Yahoo:  Jenel;s Yahoo
Yahoo:  fadedxscars_frozenxtears
Member Since:
11/28/2005
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we quit this one
im starting a new one
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Bobbie | | |
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i`ve never been good
enough. not for anything, or
anybody, my whole entire life
Life is full of secrets and
lies
so when you get screwed over
.d.o.n.t. .b.e. .s.u.r.p.r.i.s.e.d
20 things my mom taught me::
1. My mother taught me TO APPRECIATE A JOB WELL DONE.
"If you're going to kill each other, do it outside. I just finished cleaning."
2. My mother taught me RELIGION.
"You better pray that will come out of the carpet."
3. My mother taught me about TIME TRAVEL..
"If you don't straighten up, I'm going to knock you into the middle of next week!"
4. My mother taught me MORE LOGIC.
"If you fall out of that swing and break your neck, you 're not going to the store with me."
5. My mother taught me IRONY.
"Keep crying , and I'll give you something to cry about."
6. My mother taught me about the science of OSMOSIS.
"Shut your mouth and eat your supper."
7. My mother taught me about STAMINA.
"You'll sit there until all that spinach is gone."
8. My mother taught me about WEATHER.
"This room of yours looks as if a tornado went through it."
9. My mother taught me about HYPOCRISY.
"If I told you once, I've told you a million times. Don't exaggerate!"
10. My mother taught me the CIRCLE OF LIFE.
"I brought you into this world, and I can take you out."
11. My mother taught me about BEHAVIOR MODIFICATION.
"Stop acting like your father!"
12. My mother taught me about ENVY.
"There are millions of less fortunate children in this world who don't have wonderful parents like you do."
13. My mother taught me about ANTICIPATION.
"Just wait until we get home."
14. My mother taught me about RECEIVING.
"You are going to get it when you get home!"
15. My mother taught me MEDICAL SCIENCE.
"If you don't stop crossing your eyes, they are going to get stuck that way."
16. My mother taught me HUMOR.
"When that lawn mower cuts off your toes, don't come running to me."
17. My mother taught me HOW TO BECOME AN ADULT.
"If you don't eat your vegetables, you'll never grow up."
18. My mother taught me GENETICS.
"You're just like your father."
19. My mother taught me about my ROOTS.
"Shut that door behind you. Do you think you were born in a barn?"
20. My mother taught me about JUSTICE.
"One day you'll have kids, and I hope they're just like you.
Have you ever ripped a piece of paper into pieces and tried to put it back together? Have
you ever noticed that the pieces never fit together exatly as they did before? and one piece ALWAYS
seems to be missing? You got ripped apart and im trying to pick up your pieces and put them
back together...but somewhere i must have lost the piece of you that loved me
i'm not sure what's left for me,
in this world of lies i've created.
my feelings progress, my happyness can't be imitated...
not any more...
not any more...
this shit must come to an end,
i've dug my own grave, and dived right in.
no signs of this getting better, no chance for any change.
this life played out before me, all twisted into pretend.
nothing can save me now... this world of strange.
not even my own thoughts, no possible way to mend.
she just doesn't see, the true complexity that lies within.
my so-open heart, it's just bleeding out cold air.
this life i've been given, for the last time... when will it be fair?
when will things go MY way?
when will she see the way i am?
she's afraid of being alone
afriad of being left behind
she doesnt no wat to do
wen all the tears fill her eyes
she noes ull leave her one day for someone better
but she wants u to no tht her love for u is forever
perfect girl with a perfect kiss;; with perfect scars on her wristz
force a smile blink away the tears
im suppos2 b strong
suppos2 hav no fears but
im findinf it hard not 2 frown
im such a strong person
why am i breaking down?
Ë *she finally letsz go of her fake smile
(¯`·._) and the tearsz_slowly roll down her
Ë Face asz she whispersz in The mirroR
[ ill never be good enough ]*
she covers her arm to hide the scar
she remembers someone saying
"no one cares who you are"
she bought a ticket and came to the dance
she gave socializing one more chance
she sat in the back from everyone she fled
she cut up her arm and cried as she bled
people kept away as she bled on the floor
tears ran down her face as she cut some more
"what is she doing?"
"how long has she cried?"
they asked as they watched
.. This Innocent Suicide ..
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the blade to your wrist,my head to the wall and since i slipped on your love, all i could do was fall. but now youre gone and im starting to see, that without you, there is no me
she'll fall alseep with her headphones on, mascararunning down her face, listening to a song that reminds her of him
the blade to your wrist,my head to the wall and since i slipped on your love, all i could do was fall. but now youre gone and im starting to see, that without you, there is no me
she stood in the pouring rain
SCREAMING HIS NAME
as he slowly walked away
&& I cant explain all the ways
you devistate me.
have you ever laid in bed hoping that you'll wake up in the emergency room hearing the words "...she's not gonna make it..."
She's been hurt many times before this.
you'd think it would be a routine by now.
you'd think she wouldn't let it get to her,
but the truth is, you're the only one who
can break her now.
I WANT A N0TEB00K R0MANCE;;
their love was like magic <3
&& beautifully tragic ..
i watch you smile
i hold my breath
now that you're gone
death sounds better than this
</3
ALL FOR YOU
every cut and tear
every laugh and fear
every "hi" and "bye
it was all for you
when the razor hits my skin
im about ready to do this in
but you,
you are the fucking thread that keeps me on
you keep me alive
and now as blood pous out of the cut on my arm
and a tear falls down my face
all i can think of is you
it's all for you <3
HERE i AM,
ONCE AGAiN ;;
iM T0RN iNTO PiECES
i dont wanna fall to pieces i just wanna sit and cry infront of you
im not pretty
smart
happy
loveable
skinny
tall
amazing
beautiful
athletic
perfect
you always ask me how I am
i lie and say "fine"
but what if i told the truth?
what if i said
" i miss you so much "
then, darling,
then what would you do?
just like i thought.
NOTHING </3
so break me baby
forget me and you
just move on with your life
i really don't give a shit.
you like me
you tell me
you hug me
you kiss me
i love you.
you tell me
you love me.
then you take it all fucking back </3
through the wind and the rain she stands hard as a stone in a world that she cant rise above but her dreams gives her wings and she flies to a place where shes loved Concrete Angel
Theres a note written across my wrist
It reads something like this
I hate me
Its written for you read it I insist
I thought this is want you wanted
Me to be unhappy thats why you took him away right?
There take this razor
Heres my other arm
Go ahead and write
Whatever you feel like.
im living in an empty room, with all the windows smashed, & ive got so little left to lose, that it feels just like im walking on broken glass.
I woke up yesterday with a hole in my chest.
i love the cool blades sweet caress, i love it when my arms a mess. i hate knowing that you dont stop me. i hate how you pretended that you ever cared<l3
Kill me with your words kill me one last time, cut out my heart and throw it on the floor, for everyone to see.
Sugar coated kisses fall like, paper cuts onto my lips your piercing words, speak bullets through my chest the blood trickles down, bleeding from my wrists.
We slit your cold, cold veins
And let the loveage drain
(they say, they say...)
If you love something, set it free
Well I love my life
And I' m getting rid of me
Yes, its true I have scars on my arms, but I’m not some kind of freak. They’re memories when I’ve fallen apart, they’re times when I was weak.
So slice open my veins. And let the romance bleed away.
It’s fate girl, you're never coming back. Too late girl, you're not wanted. Well maybe it's fate girl, but darling. You’re fatal. Just a suicide note that's left on the table.
one day, all our scars will disappear, like the stars at dawn
and all of our pain, will fade away when morning comes
and on that day when we look backwards we will see, that everything is changed and all of our trails, will be as milestones on the way
aren't you tired of being weak?
such rage that you could scream
all the stars right out of the sky
and destroy the prettiest starry night
every evening that i die
live, love, burn, die
her wrists, they tingle
the need for the blade is uncontrollable, undeniable
so sweet, so sinful, ecstacy at its greatest
her tears fill her eyes
she cant take it
dont cry
its useless these days
dont even try
i am fairly agile
i can bend and not break
or i can break and take it
with a smile
Stitch my heart with your love songs, then rip me open with your cold cruel words.
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| Dude. I havent updated in forever.
I am so sorry.
I have been way busy.
-dies-
here;s ur update. Please forgive me.
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How many days in a year
did she wake up with hope
but she only found tears?
you can`t explain why you love
someone ;; you can`t . you just
do. so stop asking.
happiness is looking into the eyes
of someone you love
and realizing that the look in their eyes
is the same one you have in yours
 
So many ups & downs, i dont
know where to start. So many nights
i cry. Life is breaking my heart
Here's a picture of us two,
I look so good on you
and can't you please forgive me
for the hurt I put you through.
You could be my anti-depressant
But I`ll still love to overdose on you.
her voice became his passion
his love became her obsession
it was sweet, yet dangerous.
just how she wanted
Time Square can't shine as bright as you.
i SWEAR it's true.
promise
we won't fall apart
promise
this right from the start
promise
that you won't make believe
promise me <33
 
My heart is breaking.
I'm lying here.
My thoughts are choking
On you my dear.
life is about chasing after the things you truly
think are worth it, even if they don't happen.
its been so long since i’ve seen you
your smile is slowly fading
every day we spent together
is slowly being replaced by
the days we spend apart
The paramedics say;
Isnt it a shame? Such a pretty girl
did such an ugly thing....
 
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i just want to forget & let go
of all the joy, of all the pain
i took your guilt and placed it into me
& now i kiss it goodbye
our last dance ended fatally
&&if one day;; i start to matter
let me know
& If they only knew
they'd be so surprised
I’m just a good pretender
in a great disguise.
so dont explain, cause i know
exactly what you're going to say
big words, recycled phrases, &
the bittersweet taste
of all of the other gurls on
your lips <3
You & i should get away for a while..
I just want to be alone with your smile <3
-- Blink 182
The world is gonna throw us a million reasons why
this isnt gonna workout between us. But im
armed with one reason why it will... i love you-Boy Meets World
she sits there crying ,
and she realizes
thats it seems way too framilar ,
and that it has all happened before .
she sits there crying,
and realizes
whats going to be in store.
she holds her breathe
and closes her eyes,
hoping that she would never again
have to hear those words.
shes tired of crying,
and refuses to say goodbye anymore.
"save me" she screams
"rescue me" she yells
but now matter how hard she tries
he can't hear her screams for help
shes falling deeper and deeper
and all you do to try to help is to leave her
shes choking on every word
hoping not to show a tear
but the truth is she cant function
when you're not near
she laughs
she talks
she smiles
as she walks by you
hoping that maybe
just maybe
you would notice and fall in love
with her laugh
with her voice
with her smile
but she only finds herself dissapointed
because you dont even know
that she's alive
she doesn't want to be just another faded photo on your wall
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so here once again im broken
and sitting on the floor
wondering how much pain is enough
because my wounds
seem to be hurting so much more
ive been through this all before
just living in a cycle
of blood drops and tears
again and again being forced
to face my biggest fears
when will this cycle ever end? |
dont worry shes not going anywhere
shes too hurt and too broken to move | | |
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